20 July 2010

18 July 2010

15 July 2010

11 July 2010

09 July 2010


07 July 2010

can i get a yeah girl?

so here's what i think: the best thing you can do right now is to finish what you started last year and not let those good intentions grow stale. you heart has been in the right place all along. you've got what it takes to finish it up, so go to it. once the commitment is clear, you do what you can, not what you can't. the heart regulates the hands. this isn't so others can take it easy while you sweat it out. no, you're shoulder to shoulder with them all the way, your surplus matching their deficit, their surplus matching your deficit. in the end, you come out even.

cities of refuge. eagleology. residency and citizenship. marathon of life.

i learned how to be a friend, a sister, and i saw God's people doing exactly what He designed us to do.

06 July 2010

he's unresponsive because you're irresponsible

WARNING: The following is a real journal-esque post. While reading, you make experience boredom, indifference, annoyance, narcolepsy, questioning of the sanity of the author, excessive twitching. 

God, you forgave me. Not because I prayed the right prayer or prayed long enough or hard enough. Not because I feel guilty or not. Not because you loved me a little less or a little more. Not because my first reaction was to pray or to ignore you. Not even because I asked you to forgive me. You were going to regardless. You forgave me because you love me, now, like I am, not less, not more. You've never loved me more and never loved me less. You forgave me because I'm broken and torn about it. You gave me the strength to combat it and seek the way out, and next time I'll lean more on you to do exactly that. 

"The past is playing with my head, failure knocks me down again. I'm reminded of the wrong that I have said and done and that devil just won't let me forget.  My mistakes are running through my mind, I'll relive my days in the middle of the night. When I don't fit in and I don't feel like I belong anywhere, when I don't measure up to much in this life, I'm a treasure in the arms of Christ."

04 July 2010

don't be impressed with your own wisdom

What would it look like if you were so content with the commendation of God that you became liberated from the incessant need to save face with other people?

What would happen if you began to hold your reputation so lightly before men because you were so content with your standing with God?

If you held your reputation as of little value before people, you would finally be free to live bold, daring, courageous, future shaping lives that revel in the approval of God and seek that for other people.